Written By Hadrian
Feb. 19, 2022, noon(2/22/1017 AR)
Relationship Note on Alarissa
Nearly everyone loves a gift freely given and I've found that I am only occasionally the exception.
These are a pair of gifts that I will gleefully accept and remember their giving well into the future.
Written By Cambria
Feb. 19, 2022, 11:59 a.m.(2/22/1017 AR)
Written By Viviana
Feb. 19, 2022, 4:22 a.m.(2/21/1017 AR)
Written By Lark
Feb. 19, 2022, 12:49 a.m.(2/21/1017 AR)
Written By Pasquale
Feb. 18, 2022, 11:35 p.m.(2/21/1017 AR)
Relationship Note on Monique
Written By Caspian
Feb. 18, 2022, 4:03 p.m.(2/20/1017 AR)
Written By Sirius
Feb. 18, 2022, 1:49 p.m.(2/20/1017 AR)
But it is difficult, I must admit. Several family members have, before and concurrently, been describing to me these incredibly lucid circumstances they've found themselves in whilst away in their heads, presumedly sleeping. But what is it, that they see? Really? Are they not just memories? Memories being experienced through again with the misguided hopefulness of what we wished had happened, what we hoped we had been when they transpired, but weren't? Isn't it all an act of futility?
Dreaming thus, to me, feels like looking back. Like another word for regret. A more optimistic person would call it retrospection, and channel it into the realm of learning - and yes, we're never quite finished doing that (Read: learning), but then there is the issue that I have a hard time relating to these cogent dreams.
My dreams aren't as vivid as most, they're but a succession of images all translating into a conclusion of a thought. Nothing moves in my mind when I sleep, it is all a one-faceted display. Of memories deleted, fears I've forgotten, lessons I've chosen to unlearn. Because of it, in truth, I largely envy those who may visit a wholly new realm in their minds when they go to sleep, and in small part I begrudge them. I feel robbed of a chance. A blessing, maybe.
Perhaps not all of us are meant to be dreamers.
Written By Mabelle
Feb. 17, 2022, 7:58 a.m.(2/18/1017 AR)
Relationship Note on Titus
Written By Renata
Feb. 17, 2022, 12:35 a.m.(2/17/1017 AR)
Relationship Note on Tyche
Written By Artorius
Feb. 16, 2022, 11:36 p.m.(2/17/1017 AR)
I'm reluctant to replace those I lost, because loss is so hard to bear anew. Yet, the emptiness is worse.
All I can say to those who lost recently is do not pressure yourself to be who you were, before your loss. Do not pressure yourself to speedy recovery. Take what time you need... to adjust.
Written By Monique
Feb. 16, 2022, 5:35 p.m.(2/17/1017 AR)
Written By Oswyn
Feb. 16, 2022, 4:26 p.m.(2/16/1017 AR)
I don't have as many occasions to teach as Archscholar. It was good to spend some time doing something I love. Helping people read - seeing them understand it - is one of my great joys. I've missed it. I just wish I wasn't so tired.
Written By Lisebet
Feb. 16, 2022, 10:30 a.m.(2/16/1017 AR)
Until it returns.
Written By Aella
Feb. 16, 2022, 9:13 a.m.(2/16/1017 AR)
Sure you'll look ambitious and dedicated but your head will hurt.
Written By Alarissa
Feb. 16, 2022, 8:13 a.m.(2/16/1017 AR)
Which makes me wonder why I do not.
I am contemplating such now.
Written By Lou
Feb. 15, 2022, 9:22 p.m.(2/15/1017 AR)
But, who do you talk to about the horrors you've seen and read about? How do you talk about people you love who've been turned into undead versions of themselves, magicked into plant people who murder and kill with vines and limbs, like the monsters we saw in Bastion? It certainly wasn't polite dinner conversation.
They tried to make me into one of them. Me and others who came with us into Grayhold, to get the lay of the castle. They used familiar nursery songs to lure us to the nursery, and then tried to tell us that we were a stain that needed to be turned into one of them, to absolve us of being the 'get of Alarice'. To become part of the Traitor's mindless army.
I thought seeing thousands murdered by plant and rat amalgamations at Bastion the night it was sacked was bad. This was. . . so much worse. It was personal.
Then the battle of Bastion came. There were gargantuan. Three of them. I will not lie. When I saw that they were made up largely of members of the Grayson family, I vomited. I let myself have that moment. Only that moment. I then charged into battle to fight them. Or, I tried. I couldn't land a hit, but neither could they hit me.
By some miracle, I survived, unscathed. Others were not so lucky. I'm so damn grateful for everyone who helped us. I might not be able to properly express that. But, I am. So. Damn. Grateful.
Maybe, one day, I'll stop having nightmares about it all. Until then, they will see what it is they've forged when they forged me into The Tenacious Griffon.
Written By Viviana
Feb. 15, 2022, 7:42 p.m.(2/15/1017 AR)
Written By Monique
Feb. 15, 2022, 3:17 a.m.(2/13/1017 AR)
Relationship Note on Ember
Written By Mikani
Feb. 14, 2022, 1:54 p.m.(2/12/1017 AR)
Written By Rufio
Feb. 13, 2022, 10:34 p.m.(2/11/1017 AR)
I plan on learning a lot.
Very. Slowly.
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