Written By Esoka
June 10, 2017, 12:18 a.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
I've been reflecting on the virtues of Lagoma recently. And trying to embrace them, though that is hard. As someone wiser than me said recently, she is a demanding goddess. Perhaps more than any of the others. For me, at least. There is no struggle in aspiring to courage, or charity, or justice. They are a struggle to attain, but not to want.
Wanting change is harder for me. I do not think all change is for the better. Forests burn and do not grow back swiftly, and sometimes their old beauty is lost forever. People you love die, or are gone from your life forever in other ways beyond reclaiming. Wounds heal but turn to scars that will never fade. The lives of good friends move farther and farther from yours. These are changes that are life, and I accept them, but I don't do it happily.
The demand of Lagoma is to take all changes, good and bad, and make yourself something better from them. Be greater. Accept the life you have, and do something vital with it. It is very hard. I feel the need to weep sometimes, for how hard it is.
Being prodigal is many things to me. But more than anything else it is, I think, the decision to change. I was one thing when I was just a daughter of the Greenwood tribes. I bent the knee to Riven fifteen years ago and became something else. I was just a girl then and did not understand the full weight of what I was doing. I know it better now. When I meet those who have recently bent the knee, they are wild and untamed and fierce in the ways and traditions of their tribes, in ways I am not anymore. I am not what I was then, and I miss that girl sometimes.
On the whole, though, I think I have changed for the better. I am proud to be a citizen of the Compact. There is respect for law here, for order, a unity of many peoples who've come together to make something better and stronger than they are apart. The things built here endure after those that made them are gone. I am part of that, and it is a good life.
I do wonder how much I've changed. How much the girl I was at fifteen would even recognize who I am today. The things I find myself wanting now, the things I think might make me happy, are different than what she thought she wanted.
I feel this place, and the people I meet in it, changing me still the more. I'm not sure what I will be at the end of summer, or autumn or winter beyond them. Something greater, I pray to Our Lady of Change. I will try not to fight against what the future would make of me.
Wanting change is harder for me. I do not think all change is for the better. Forests burn and do not grow back swiftly, and sometimes their old beauty is lost forever. People you love die, or are gone from your life forever in other ways beyond reclaiming. Wounds heal but turn to scars that will never fade. The lives of good friends move farther and farther from yours. These are changes that are life, and I accept them, but I don't do it happily.
The demand of Lagoma is to take all changes, good and bad, and make yourself something better from them. Be greater. Accept the life you have, and do something vital with it. It is very hard. I feel the need to weep sometimes, for how hard it is.
Being prodigal is many things to me. But more than anything else it is, I think, the decision to change. I was one thing when I was just a daughter of the Greenwood tribes. I bent the knee to Riven fifteen years ago and became something else. I was just a girl then and did not understand the full weight of what I was doing. I know it better now. When I meet those who have recently bent the knee, they are wild and untamed and fierce in the ways and traditions of their tribes, in ways I am not anymore. I am not what I was then, and I miss that girl sometimes.
On the whole, though, I think I have changed for the better. I am proud to be a citizen of the Compact. There is respect for law here, for order, a unity of many peoples who've come together to make something better and stronger than they are apart. The things built here endure after those that made them are gone. I am part of that, and it is a good life.
I do wonder how much I've changed. How much the girl I was at fifteen would even recognize who I am today. The things I find myself wanting now, the things I think might make me happy, are different than what she thought she wanted.
I feel this place, and the people I meet in it, changing me still the more. I'm not sure what I will be at the end of summer, or autumn or winter beyond them. Something greater, I pray to Our Lady of Change. I will try not to fight against what the future would make of me.
Written By Calaudrin
June 9, 2017, 10:34 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
I need some hobbies. Taking suggestions.
Written By Rymarr
June 9, 2017, 10:20 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
I've joined with the Iron Guard. Mostly I realized that I'd become bored. The life of the King's Own is greatly regimented and exacting, so a lack of any real direction caused me to realize why I was having trouble sleeping at night. While my daily activities to my House keep me busy, it was a different sort of busy than I am accustomed. The Iron Guard presents a number of opportunities that I look forward to encountering and I think that it will provide me with something great to focus my attention and efforts toward. Aside from the internal workings of our own House, of course.
Written By Charlaine
June 9, 2017, 10:09 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Carita
My old friend, looking forward to our tea.
Written By Charlaine
June 9, 2017, 10:06 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Today I saw the count off, after many cups of rum.
I went for a walk along the beach, and breathed in the salt air.
It was a nice time in solace...
A new leaf unturned, old friendships renewed
Our Friendships today build the back of Arx tomorrow.
I went for a walk along the beach, and breathed in the salt air.
It was a nice time in solace...
A new leaf unturned, old friendships renewed
Our Friendships today build the back of Arx tomorrow.
Written By Charlaine
June 9, 2017, 10 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Petal
Looking forward to the Menagerie Masquerade - Petal was able to raise to the occasion and provide me and my date with clothes to wear. Cant wait to show them off, rather excited for good fun.
Written By Alexis
June 9, 2017, 6:58 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Part of coming to Arx has been an expansion of my horizons. Discovering new people. Learning new things. Learning more about myself.
Some of this instruction has come at the hands of noted luminaries. That, too, is a thing that is taking some getting used to. High Lords and Archlectors are no longer distant, almost mythical figures. They are right here, in the flesh. Human.
I do not envy their burdens.
Some of this instruction has come at the hands of noted luminaries. That, too, is a thing that is taking some getting used to. High Lords and Archlectors are no longer distant, almost mythical figures. They are right here, in the flesh. Human.
I do not envy their burdens.
Written By Narciso
June 9, 2017, 6:53 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Speaking of the Realm being attacked, didn't we hear about the unfortunate losses of Knights, Princesses, and assorted individuals lately? Was that just me? No? Good!
But please, set your fires! Division, that's what we need! We survived the Siege, we don't have anything else that could possibly require maintained unity.
But in regard to Thrax, I should point out that at least they sing when they work. More people should do that. Singing while working is good for the soul.
Going back to laughing now.
But please, set your fires! Division, that's what we need! We survived the Siege, we don't have anything else that could possibly require maintained unity.
But in regard to Thrax, I should point out that at least they sing when they work. More people should do that. Singing while working is good for the soul.
Going back to laughing now.
Written By Halsim
June 9, 2017, 6:15 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
I've been keeping out of the whole debate about Thrax changing to become less hated by those who don't understand our culture. But now that we have individuals condemning Thrax for changing, as if we're just stupid for not 'realizing it sooner', I have to laugh.
Each of the Realms has their own identities... their things that could easily be condemned... yet I don't see any of that when I read these journals. Instead, I just see more and more hate for a Realm others don't understand, and have to wonder how people would feel if their Realms were attacked, even after a compromise is reached.
Each of the Realms has their own identities... their things that could easily be condemned... yet I don't see any of that when I read these journals. Instead, I just see more and more hate for a Realm others don't understand, and have to wonder how people would feel if their Realms were attacked, even after a compromise is reached.
Written By Narciso
June 9, 2017, 5:59 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Carita
Braying within the Archives? That's just rude. Please try to find whatever mule you let slip within. Meanwhile, I shall return to watch the embers.
Written By Ilvin
June 9, 2017, 5:20 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
... Limerance, give me strength.
Written By Samantha
June 9, 2017, 5:13 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Given the choice between further condemning the actions of others after they have chosen to make a change to fundamental principles of how they live their lives, or offering them welcome after choosing reform that is compassionate and fair - however long it may take them to get there, I choose to open my arms and welcome them. Past cruelties should be a lesson never forgotten, but it should come along with the awareness that we cannot change the past, we can only shape the future.
If we do want to encourage further change, I suspect the way to do it won't be through condemnation of those who acknowledge it in a positive fashion, and continue to aid in further realization and share welcome as it occurs.
It is no crime to acknowledge an effort to be better, which in and of itself will encourage further consideration of reform. We can choose to pursue the positive and increase it in scope, or dwell on what was never done, or what was done wrong, and never take a single further step toward enlightenment.
I choose to walk the path.
If we do want to encourage further change, I suspect the way to do it won't be through condemnation of those who acknowledge it in a positive fashion, and continue to aid in further realization and share welcome as it occurs.
It is no crime to acknowledge an effort to be better, which in and of itself will encourage further consideration of reform. We can choose to pursue the positive and increase it in scope, or dwell on what was never done, or what was done wrong, and never take a single further step toward enlightenment.
I choose to walk the path.
Written By Carita
June 9, 2017, 5:09 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Narciso
That would explain the raucous braying sound that shattered the peace of the Archives, Confessor Artiglio.
Written By Narciso
June 9, 2017, 4:44 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Aureth
I want you to picture the gasps, the shocked crowd growing still as it reels from hearing that latest journal. I want you to picture it well, the stunned faces, just before the storm of reprisal, approval or outrage.
Do you hear it? A solitary voice, even as the crowd draws air to shout, cheer or scream. That voice? It's laughing.
That's me.
Do you hear it? A solitary voice, even as the crowd draws air to shout, cheer or scream. That voice? It's laughing.
That's me.
Written By Aureth
June 9, 2017, 4:35 p.m.(8/15/1006 AR)
The town criers are running about the town with copies of the latest round of proclamations, some to be recorded in the White Journals, and since I was here, anyway, I thought I might step aside and record my own impressions.
I, too, was gratified and relieved that House Thrax has decided to no longer use the diseased bodies of infants as weapons against their fellow men. I was also very pleased to hear that Thrax now recognizes that flaying the skin from human bodies is unusually cruel, nasty and brutal, and shall not be included in the annals of their military punishments anymore.
I am so glad to join in those lauding House Thrax with laurels and accolades for stepping forward and acknowledging that disgusting barbarity is, in fact, disgusting barbarity, beneath the dignity of humanity, and stands against the honor of Gloria, the charity of Gild, and the righteous justice of the Sentinel.
I too shall pat them on the back and thank them for their recognition that flaying people alive is, in fact, a horrible act.
I am heartened that this decision comes so soon upon the heels of their recognition that women, in fact, count as people, and should be allowed such revolutionary rights as property and inheritance, in addition to doing all of the administrative and financial and legal work that they have been doing in the Mourning Isles for generations anyway.
I look forward to how impressed we shall all be when House Thrax makes its next revolutionary discovery.
I, too, was gratified and relieved that House Thrax has decided to no longer use the diseased bodies of infants as weapons against their fellow men. I was also very pleased to hear that Thrax now recognizes that flaying the skin from human bodies is unusually cruel, nasty and brutal, and shall not be included in the annals of their military punishments anymore.
I am so glad to join in those lauding House Thrax with laurels and accolades for stepping forward and acknowledging that disgusting barbarity is, in fact, disgusting barbarity, beneath the dignity of humanity, and stands against the honor of Gloria, the charity of Gild, and the righteous justice of the Sentinel.
I too shall pat them on the back and thank them for their recognition that flaying people alive is, in fact, a horrible act.
I am heartened that this decision comes so soon upon the heels of their recognition that women, in fact, count as people, and should be allowed such revolutionary rights as property and inheritance, in addition to doing all of the administrative and financial and legal work that they have been doing in the Mourning Isles for generations anyway.
I look forward to how impressed we shall all be when House Thrax makes its next revolutionary discovery.
Written By Inigo
June 9, 2017, 1:10 p.m.(8/14/1006 AR)
The business of being busy. It's amazing how the small things in life tend to take up the most time. I suppose that makes sense when the small things are piled on again and again. Typically, as a swordsman, I only find myself lacking in the ability to socialize when a war is on or there is a duel to be fought, and even then I still have time to drink. With new roles comes new responsibilities... a lot... of new responsibilities. There is hope, there is a light at the end of the tunnel, I'm just hoping that light is nearer than it seems.
Written By Niamh
June 9, 2017, 9:41 a.m.(8/14/1006 AR)
Word of the Gold Order is spreading. Just this week I had a trade factor come to me with tales of a gloomy place he passed on the way into Arx, and dark whispers of it. I admit, I've never heard of the Brinemurk, but if what the merchant says is true, then it's something we'll definitely be looking into. Princess Lark has given permission to travel through Grayson lands, now I only need to get Sister Gisele to look into the history of the place to see if it's as bad as I was told. If so, then I'll call arms in the Order, find a ship, and head north to take care of the matter.
I only pray that it is not like Downing Glen. I do not wish to become trapped by a bodiless evil once more. Though... I should ask Aislin if she can spare a tracker from the Society.
I only pray that it is not like Downing Glen. I do not wish to become trapped by a bodiless evil once more. Though... I should ask Aislin if she can spare a tracker from the Society.
Written By Valery
June 9, 2017, 9:25 a.m.(8/14/1006 AR)
I fell asleep at the Stone Grove and Lord Anze woke me up...
I don't even remember what did we talk about.
I probably shouldn't talk with people when I'm so sleepy...
I don't even remember what did we talk about.
I probably shouldn't talk with people when I'm so sleepy...
Written By Edward
June 9, 2017, 9:01 a.m.(8/14/1006 AR)
A great showing by Princess Marian and High Lord Victus in the Telmar. An intense fight by two dedicated fighters showing their mettle.
Written By Sparte
June 9, 2017, 12:31 a.m.(8/13/1006 AR)
The Iron Arrow Barbeque seems to be coming together. I've just got to figure out how many skewers I need. Oof, and what to do with them after. That will be a lot of metal skewers.
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