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Written By Joslyn

March 2, 2017, 8:29 a.m.(1/7/1006 AR)

I was ten, and she was twelve. I looked into her eyes when she made the suggestion, she was always the one making the suggestions, how could I say no? She was so beautiful. I remember it so clearly, as if it were only yesterday. I was just a girl, and she was already blossoming into such a beauty.

I looked into her eyes, and my heart raced. I didn't make sense of it at the time, the affection that I felt for her going far beyond that of simple friendship. At the time I simply regarded her suggestion as she called it. "Practice." My heart pounded, I could feel it fluttering in my chest, a lump rise in my throat, and my stomach danced. Our lips met and I felt every part of my body feel as though it were going to burst. Our inexperienced attempts had felt like the most wonderful thing to me at the time. If only I had come to understand my own feelings sooner. The years wasted dancing around the issue.

I then wondered why I enjoyed our practice so much more than when I would kiss boys. It never felt the same, or right. The whole time I thought that I must be doing something wrong. Clearly. I must have been, right? When I realized it must have been girls I tried again. It was better, but still nothing compared to my first. Our practice became earnest, and soon I began to understand my love. I was afraid to call her mine, but I guess we always did have a piece of each other's heart. Whether our time together is far too short, or we grow into bitter old women together, I will treasure every instant I spend in her company. Whatever the future brings, I refuse to allow it to take away our past.

Written By Silas

March 2, 2017, 5:49 a.m.(1/7/1006 AR)

I missed the sudden royal wedding because I was busy building furniture for the groom as a wedding gift, but it seems he has given me the leftovers of the feast. It appears the Mercier family will be dining on scrumptious wedding cake tonight! I gave Dash the roast fowl as a reward for all his hard work as of late.

Written By Aislin

March 2, 2017, 3:18 a.m.(1/7/1006 AR)

Relationship Note on Cara

She came to Ashford through marriage to a cousin that I frankly despised, and yet became as close to me as a sister. One of the sharpest minds I know, a skilled researcher, an excellent diplomat, and an able administrator. She's been a Voice of Grayson -- and no doubt will be again -- as well as one of the head diplomats of the Crown, a Scholar, and so many other roles.

The Graysons could not ask for a better princess than Cara, and the Crownlands as a whole benefit by this match.

So I can't be unhappy, even if the solarium of Ashford House will seem a little emptier now.

Written By Juliet

March 2, 2017, 3:03 a.m.(1/7/1006 AR)

Today has been tumultous.

It started with tears and earnest confessions, and ended in them too.

That in itself isn't too unusual, I suppose, though I've been crying a lot lately, for good or bad.

I was invited to attend Duke Valkieri Rubino to his sister's wedding at rather short notice, but - how could I say no?

The ceremony was beautiful. The bride and groom very lovely and very handsome together.

She will make a wonderful princess, as Lady Dafne said.

And Grayson could scarcely do better - but then, I think they already knew that.

I was sorry to have to leave so quickly, but I had spiritual duties to attend to.

And then my night turned very strange indeed.

I look forward to writing on that, some time.

Written By Jasher

March 2, 2017, 1:34 a.m.(1/7/1006 AR)

Tonight was my first meeting with the Scholars. It was a very intellectually stimulating experience. In fact, it was so intellectually stimulating that it almost came to blows. I blame the complete lack of rum being served in the lead up to the meeting. Give me a drunken brawl any day.

Written By Merek

March 1, 2017, 11:58 p.m.(1/7/1006 AR)

Relationship Note on Jasher

I met the Prince at one of our Scholar meetings. He seems to be interested in a lot of curious subjects. I've debated if I should partner with him sometime on research.

Written By Isabeau

March 1, 2017, 10:25 p.m.(1/7/1006 AR)

Having now witnessed the wedding of Prince Laric Grayson and Lady Cara Ashford, I can attest that they make a smart match. Their vows were simple, sweet, and sincere. For a moment, with eyes closed, I imagined they were my own. What princess has not wondered about her own wedding? I can only hope that when my smart match is made, it brings as much joy to House Valardin as was beheld between House Grayson and House Ashford tonight.

Written By Ainsley

March 1, 2017, 9:25 p.m.(1/6/1006 AR)

This will never be: Pietro Grayson.

I did not realize, how desperately, until this moment that I had wanted it to be. It would have likely not been were he not gone from me. Now, even the utterly infinitely small chance is gone.

Yes, someday I will marry. I will do my duty for my family. I will take a wife and provide heirs. I will be a faithful and loyal husband, if not loving. Pietro Igniseri took my love with him. When I marry whoever my bride shall be will know this. I will lie to no one about this.

However, marriage is the furthest thing from my mind right now. I shall not marry any time soon. There is too much at stake, and it is not pressing that I marry. Marriage can wait until after the war is won. Until the monsters are vanquished. Until I no longer need to walk the walls and wait to call the defense of the city.

Still.

I wish this could have been:

Prince Pietro Grayson, beloved husband.

Written By Merek

March 1, 2017, 9:04 p.m.(1/6/1006 AR)

I did not participate in the celebrations that honored the people that plan for war, in full. However, I thought it was nice to visit and show respect in my own way. It was not one of my best nights, I was not as social and excited as I should've been, but I think it was a wonderful event.

Written By Merek

March 1, 2017, 7:28 p.m.(1/6/1006 AR)

Relationship Note on Bianca

I have known Lady Bianca since I came to Arx and joined the Scholars. She is one of the best friends a person can have, and very refined. I am happy for her, with her new decision to be a Godsworn, and I am confident she will do her best.

Written By Calliope

March 1, 2017, 7:19 p.m.(1/6/1006 AR)

Relationship Note on Laric

The High Inquisitor/Minister of Loyalty/Prince of Grayson is a busy busy man. I am honoured that he found time to talk to me, but I find myself with more questions coming out of the meeting.

Still a connection made, that cannot be bad.

Written By Castiel

March 1, 2017, 3:56 p.m.(1/6/1006 AR)

Relationship Note on Max

He is smart and knows what he wants as well as how to get it. Doing away with the illusion of power and authority is a burden which when shed can unleash one into the world; I can make great things happen with this one.

Written By Castiel

March 1, 2017, 3:52 p.m.(1/6/1006 AR)

Relationship Note on Valerius

My favorite. Fools will look at him and fail to see the Thrax blood burning in his veins but he has already conquered adversity that would have broken smaller men. I expect a lot from him, more than he knows can be expected. He will surprise many when he assumes his proper place at the table.

Written By Orathy

March 1, 2017, 2:49 p.m.(1/6/1006 AR)

*Horrible writing once again*
Sayz good-by like ta one be lovin.
Aye, she be too good.
Sweet 'n good.
I be not.

Written By Eirene

March 1, 2017, 2:46 p.m.(1/6/1006 AR)

Relationship Note on Harmon

Sometimes you meet someone you just click with. Even if all their candles aren't lit in their candelabra and the wax is dripping all over the place. That's Harmon. A scrawny kid with a brilliant fractured mind, he and I get along in a weird way. He's devoted to science and research and finding new ways to fuck over our opponents as much as I am. He speaks in thought, with his mind spinning so quickly all the words can't find their way to his mouth. Doesn't matter, I understand his thought process and don't need the rest. I think I've given him some of the answers he's been seeking for his whole life and opened a whole new world of questions.

Written By Castiel

March 1, 2017, 2:15 p.m.(1/6/1006 AR)

Relationship Note on Driskell

Say what you want about the man, he's reliable and flexible, both rare qualities in anyone these days but nearly unique in combination. Sure enough he harbors the usual set of theories about supernatural effects and monsters but such are expected among sailors, and it has never impeded him from carrying on an assignment.

Written By Driskell

March 1, 2017, 2:12 p.m.(1/6/1006 AR)

Relationship Note on Castiel

Driskell can remember the time he first met this dark prince of Thrax, serving on a ship south of Darkwater as both men were at port. A very pragmatic royal, not prone to brash thinking or acting without all the consequences planned for. He owns his own small fleet, and on occasion Driskell has been called on to assist on certain matters for the prince.

Written By Reese

March 1, 2017, 1:57 p.m.(1/6/1006 AR)

Relationship Note on Tristram

Prince Tristram and myself have been good friends. I hope that we are able to remain such. He is blessed by Gloria. I have respect for him. It breaks my heart to see him in discord with my family. Even before this challenge, I was not ready for marriage. After this challenge, it is out of the question. I have deep sorrow over how this went. I hold some guilt and bare much blame in this situation. Prince Tristram asked me to marry him and I told what amounted to, I am not ready for marriage now. That left room for hope and that hope lead him astray. It was hope that I gave him and I am sorry.

Written By Reese

March 1, 2017, 1:54 p.m.(1/6/1006 AR)

Relationship Note on Ainsley

I love my cousin Ainsley deeply.

I believe that he will and should get married. I would like to see his wife join house Grayson, because I couldn’t bare the loss of him. He will make a wonderful husband and have fine children. His ability to love both sexes in no way will hinder his ability to have a family and to love a wife.

He is also a fine warrior.

Written By Calista

March 1, 2017, 1:42 p.m.(1/6/1006 AR)

Relationship Note on Roland

Perhaps one of the most interesting men I have come to meet in Arx. I am thankful for the chance and opportunity to learn your story.

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